February 2023

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Pick Your Poison?

Priyadarshini


It is the start of another semester(!), and as much as I am looking forward to imbibing all the knowledge coming my way, part of me has always been scared to face anything new head-on. Graduate studies are meant to be a deep-dive into the topics you love, but my anxiousness to perform well makes facing any challenging content incredibly scary. 

For much of my school and undergraduate years, I have been driven to believe that my grades are a true indication of how much I’ve understood a particular topic and been able to then regurgitate it in exams. I have always chased the high of scoring 95+ and anything less felt like a slap on the wrist. Graduate school is a whole ‘nother ball game in that your grades are only riding shotgun now - your love for the subject is driving. Right from crafting purpose statements explaining your yearning to learn, to choosing subjects that you know will be an uphill battle - everything is done is in the pursuit of knowledge. And yet, I sometimes find myself dreading particular subjects just because I know that I probably won’t excel in their presentation or group project components. It is a struggle between my fear and determination to choose subjects that will teach me something new, but ultimately bring my GPA down because of how they are graded. 

Still, the more I think about it, it all comes down to hurting my future prospects. Do I want to hurt them by having a stellar GPA but knowing less, having skated by with nothing that challenged me, or do I want to hurt them by having an average GPA, but a stronger mindset that has faced every challenge and absorbed the given knowledge thoroughly? As an international student especially, the grades are all that I have to show for my learning, whether it is to friends and family or future employers. How can I prove I have “learnt well,” if that does not translate into an A+ on my report card?

Having looked at my seniors who have achieved the “American dream” and are highly-accomplished professionals in their fields, I come to the conclusion that while grades are a metric to be considered, they should no longer be propped up on a high pedestal. Giving them undue importance over real education can only hurt in the long run, because what use is a good grade if you cannot solve a problem that you have studied for? When a novice in the field asks me how to resolve an issue, I cannot brandish my transcript at them in lieu of an answer. Learning, failing, and growing are all part of the MS pipeline.

And so, I quash my baseless dread and choose that subject with the intense coursework and challenging grading. That A+ is not necessary, but giving my best will always be.

 

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Priyadarshini

Priyadarshini is a master's student in computer engineering, with a focus on computer architecture. Priya completed her bachelor’s in Electronics and Communication in India. She enjoys multi-lingual fiction and hopes this will lead her to learning more about different cultures and meeting new people. She enjoys music, sketching scenery, and writing. Through her research, Priya hopes to work on space loT applications in the future.

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